Like the doctor who smokes and doesn't follow his own advice, I find myself in a similar waters. I wonder why I feel out of balance, experiencing resistance instead of well-being. I've gotten into the habit of relying solely on my head and logic to run my life. Soldiering on, I forget to connect within, pausing to hear the wisdom from my Higher Self.
This morning I take the time to listen. I can take in the messages, the reminders of what I know and forget. I find myself feeling better, lighter. I print out the message and vow to read it at the start of my days to come.
Connecting within is as easy as slowly inhaling and exhaling. I find the slow breathing loosens my connection to my head. As I continue breathing, feelings rise up as my heart comes forward.
I do my connecting via writing. I select a quiet private place. I play evocative music in the background. I may light a candle and say a brief prayer. I like to write using my laptop because I can type faster than write. I typically will pose a question, and as a response begins to emerge, I type, with my eyes closed. I keep my eyes closed simply to keep the flow going. I usually type fast, and make typos. If I had my eyes open I would want to fix the typos immediately, instead of waiting til I'm done writing.
This response to my sense of restlessness and loss over the death of my parents came through earlier this summer. The wisdom remains as relevant today as several months ago:
We tell you to be still, to breathe deeply. You long to know with your head. But first you must know with your heart. It's a similar struggle that your brother is going through. Be still. Practice listening for your heart voice. Bring yourself back to this moment, over and over again. Be okay with feeling what you feel in this moment. Be okay with what is. You use up a lot of energy resisting what is. And trying to use logic and force to create impact in your life, rather than allowing, and understanding that life unfolds - much easier than using resistance to fight or to force. Again we say to you to practice staying in the moment, for a moment. You do realize that it was your heart that guided you to Hendersonville that day, to that bookstore, to that very book that you need in order to be in the moment. Please do not sweat this. You keep forgetting that you are loved and cherished. You feel that lacking, because your mother and father, the first source of your earthly love, have passed on from this physical plane. If only you knew how your loved ones hover and love you from above, you would bask in that warmth and feel the soothing coming your way.
We say this lovingly to you - do not stop feeling what is coming tthrough - do not stop the feeling, even when it's sad or painful. The more deeply you can feel what is painful, the more deeply you can feel the joy and the love.
As I mentioned above, I type with my eyes closed. I have no idea how that last paragraph got underlined. Apparently I hit something on my laptop. But it's obvious that my Higher Self felt that those particular words needed extra emphasis!
Deb -- I love your words here on the process of listening and recording. The message you received is beautiful, but even more than that, there is the way you are listening, explaining -- perhaps as much to yourself as to those of us who are listening in -- that there are preferences and qualities that are important to follow in order to get centered again, to keep the channel clear. "If it's a prayer, it looks like this..." so to speak. Personally I find that wonderful and magical. This must be what the genesis of an authentic ritual is like. Later, we probably turn that stuff into superstition, keep trying to recreate something that's moved on, but in the beginning it comes from a pure place. "When I dig for water, I do it this way, and I find it, just so, two feet down. See! There's the water now!" Well, that's how it feels anyway from your writing, and it is a natural invitation for others to tell stories of their own rituals. I'm trying to think what mine are, but they aren't yet so clear, nor at this moment are the messages...they are still too far underground and locked in their stones.
Posted by: Dan | September 07, 2010 at 09:20 PM
Dan, sharing what it "looks like" is indeed a way not only to explain it to myself, but to reinforce my own learning.
Sometimes when the need is great, as in the situation I described above, the process has a way of finding me!
Thanks for sharing your eloquence with us.
Posted by: Deb Call | September 08, 2010 at 05:05 PM
Indeed, the last underlined paragraph was really profound!
Posted by: Spiritual Coach | December 12, 2010 at 10:26 AM
Deb,thanks for helping me out for finding myself in my own way.your words help me lot to find myself,you words "Be still. Practice listening for your heart voice" are the great motivator for me.once again thanks a lot for sharing this.Looking forward to hear more from you..
Posted by: Coaching spiritual | May 27, 2011 at 07:08 AM
Thanks for stopping by . . . may you find the support you desire by listening to that wise voice within you.
Posted by: Deb Call | May 27, 2011 at 08:09 AM
A lovely glimpse into the workings and folds of your soul Debbie. May you always know that you are loved and cherished. Keep writing my friend, and always see your uniqueness, your beautiful gift and blessing to this amazing world.
Bright and spiritual blessings.
David
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Posted by: David Cunliffe | August 28, 2011 at 01:19 PM
David, thank you for the kind and loving encouragement. Your words touch and uplift me.
Posted by: Deb Call | August 28, 2011 at 08:14 PM